9.20.2005

Doubts

So, here I am again. Doubting my career choice. Six months ago or so, I was in the same position. I have struggled with this everyday that I have been in Speed School. Should I question it that much? Lately, it's been hitting harder because co-op is so close and I feel that this will have the last say. I am torn because I don't really hate my classes, I just don't think that I am cut out to be an engineer. I want to teach. I want to help people along their journeys through life. I don't feel that chemical engineering will provide me with the same opportunity for this as high school teaching will. What most people don't understand is that I did not just think of this today, I just chose to share it with you today. It's on my mind every time I am doing an MEB problem with reactors and flow rates and all that stuff. So, those of you who read this. Don't be surprised in a few months when I decide that I am done with this stuff.

9.05.2005

Musings

Ok, goal for Fall '05: DO SOMETHING WITH THIS BLOG

I feel like I have more purpose now. I'm finally getting rolling with the whole engineering thing, and I think I like it. I hope I like it. I don't really know what to do if I get to co-op and hate it. But I don't think it will end up that way, so I'll have nothing to worry about. I find myself trying to plan out the next few years of my life, but then at the same time I don't want to. We all know that the best way to make God laugh is to have a plan. So, I'm torn between wanting to know where life is going to take me and wanting to be completely surprised and excited when the surprises take place. I guess I'll just take it one day at a time and focus on being a good person. I just wish it was that easy.