12.25.2004

Not Ready

Christmas is such a wonderful time of year. Not only do I love buying things for people, everyone, for the most part, is in a good mood (unless I am at work, where it is quite the opposite). But are people in a good mood because of the commercialism of Christmas or because our Savior was born today? I do not thing that I completely take in that Jesus was born today. I went to church last night and I listened to the readings and I know in my heart that He was born, but I think I am so caught up in everything else right now and I am not ready to let the baby Jesus into my life and my heart.

I am not ready for a lot of things in my life. I realize this more and more. I am not ready to go into the world. As much as I try to convince myself that I want to get out and live my own life, I am scared shitless. There are so many pressures that go along with getting out of college and getting a real job. Not only are you expected to live a normal life on your own, marriage and family are usually soon to follow. I know many couples who are engaged and getting married this summer. They are only 2 years older than me! I know that I should just not worry about it and let life happen, but it is scary.

I am not ready for some of my friends to graduate and move on with their lives. I just got here and they are already leaving. There is nothing I can do about this one but wish them the best of luck.

I am over at my brother's house right now with my little brothers and it is time for dinner, which also means it is time for me to fix dinner. So, I hope you all have a Merry Christmas. Please call me or email me or something. I miss you all!

12.20.2004

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas
Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger. And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

LUKE 2:8-14

12.16.2004

Last Day in Da Ville....for now

I had a blast today. I miss hanging around with Mikey and the crew. They are really a lot of fun. I spent the whole day bonding with Momo and Mikey as we made the apartment spic and span and wrapped gifts and made pigs in a blanket. I know, I know, it sounds boring, but with those guys, nothing is ordinary or boring.

Matt Morris has to be one of the funniest people I know. Everytime someone would open a gift these were his exact words, not joke, every time, "Ok ok, tell the story. Hey, tell the story. Ok, I'll tell the story." And he would tell the story behind the present that had just been unwrapped.

The Christmas party was really a good time. I will miss them all, along with all of my other U of L peeps. So...tomorrow, back to Southern Indiana. Yessssss. Target, here I come!

12.13.2004

Free at Last

Finally, the hour has arrived. I am finished with finals! I just finished the last page of the first chapter of my college career. Even though I feel a little under the weather, today is a glorious day. It is snowing outside. This is enough to make my day. I am free today.

12.02.2004

The Last Test

The start of today has been wonderful. I woke up early and mentally prepared myself to take a calculus test, as I do every Thursday. But today was different. As I walked in the 31 degree weather I was not only going over in my head about how to find the center of mass of a thin wire, I was thinking, “This is my last calculus 1 test I will ever take!” My emotions were of happiness and joy until I remembered how much harder the next three semesters of calculus would be. But this didn’t let me down. I sat down in my seat in Ernst Hall and began flipping through my binder, scanning the course pack unit 14 notes. I realized that I pretty much knew this stuff the best that I ever would and closed the binder. Tyler passed out the short test and informed us all that we had about an hour to complete it. I wrote Harper, Kathryn 05 on the test and began what seemed like the closing of a chapter in my life.

After about 30 minutes of hardcore mental processing (washers or cylindrical shells??), I handed in my test. And I was happy. This last test was cake. Calculus has ended on a good note and I am set to have a great day.

Now…about that calculus final…